Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Swedish butterfly too heavy to fly...

I's snowing in Luleå, Sweden. Not a good weather for a butterfly to spread her wings...

My pants are feeling tight. I 'm afraid to step  on the scale. My russian sister in Petrozavodsk is brave. She is reporting today about her back lash here at our blog.
 It's been a while ago since we have been writing and today the month of the christmas feast starts. Luckily I'm keeping the contract signed two years ago; no snacks, no cakes, no sweets.
In exactly one month I am allowed to eat all the forbidden food for seven days; pizza, hamburgers, cheese doodles. I won't... I have to wait until after the Barents Press annual meeting held in Luleå this spring. The russian butterfly battle combat  Natasha will visit Luleå and we will compare our waists from last year when we decided to write this blog and fight our over weight..
It's time to get back on track with one goal: victory!

шведский

победа

Russian measurements. Kick me, friends.


I visited Murmansk last week. Met there a lot of international people, who was asking me: what going on with your duel? Why did you stop write and report?  Actually why? Because laziness. Because business. Because silliness. You can always justify yourself.
I want to stop justify my majesty. I kicked myself and go ahead. Sister, are you hear me?
My numbers for two month:
Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93,5 – 93,3-96.00
Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 – 96 -93 – 93 - 99
Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 – 116 – 112 – 112-116
Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 – 121- 119 – 119- 121
Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 70-72
Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 – 31-29 – 31-29 – 31-29- 31-29
Nothing to be proud. Except for honesty
Check it next year, on January, 1.
Русские замеры. Дайте мне пинка, друзья.
Я побывала в Мурманске, где видела много знакомых иностранцев, которые спрашивали: «Что случилось с вашей дуэлью? Почему ты перестала писать и отчитываться о похудении?». О-О! Угадатейте. Потому что ленивая жопа. Потому что деловая колбаса. И глупая красавица. Ну, чтобы оправдать себя, всегда найдется словесный запас. Правда ведь, девочки?
Я хочу перестать оправдывать себя. Я даю пинка сама себе и иду дальше. Сестра, ты слышишь меня?
Мои цифры за два месяца.
Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93, 5 – 93,3- 96
Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 – 96 – 92 – 92-99
Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 – 116 – 112 – 112- 119
Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 – 121 – 119 – 119-121
Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 70-72

Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 29-31 – 29-31 – 29-31- 31-29
Гордиться особо нечем. Разве что честностью. Замеряемся в следующем году, 1 января.


Thursday, October 1, 2015

Tummy is smiling

                My tummy is smiling. This can be seen even through the thick sweater

The next one month of my life is gone. No progress. No breakthrough. No changing the weight and size. Thanks God I keep my ex- achievements. I didn’t get bigger and fatter. I stopped. Actually I satisfied with the result. I glad to see my reflection in the mirror. But my tummy! What I should do with this? How I can kill this big bubble on my body? Who know the best way please give me advise.
My numbers are came to a stop and don’t going to move. I need some ass kicking or love inspiration. Who make me a kick? Who make me a flirt?
My boring numbers:
Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93,5 – 93,3
Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 – 96 -93 - 93
Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 – 116 – 112 - 112
Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 – 121- 119 - 119
Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 69-72
Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 – 31-29 – 31-29 – 31-29
I measure the volume of my tummy Globe from that moment. It’s 99 cm now. I declare war on him
Check it on November, 1.
Я ищу вдохновения
Очередной месяц моей жизни испарился, а воз и ныне там. Вес стоит. Никакого прорыва, ни результата, размер не изменился. Хвала спортивным богам, я хоть смогла удержать то, чего уже добилась. Я не стала толще и шире. Я удерживаю позиции. Вообще-то я довольна результатом в целом. И мне уже нравится видеть свое отражение. Но вот пузо. Что мне с ним делать. Торчит из любого платья. Как я могу убить этого врага на моем теле? Дайте хороший совет, как быстро сдуть этот чертов шарик.
Мои цифры не двигаются, замерли. Мне нужен волшебный пендаль или любовное настроение. Короче, ищу и то и другое, чтобы двинуться дальше.
Мои скучные цифры:
Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93, 5 – 93,3
Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 – 96 – 92 - 92
Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 – 116 – 112 - 112
Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 – 121 – 119 - 119
Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72 – 69-72

Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 29-31 – 29-31 – 29-31
Еще с этого момента начала измерять свой маленький глобус. Объем живота 99 см. Я объявляю ему войну.
Замеряемся в ноябре.

Saturday, September 5, 2015

No more bread....

After an advice from Calle commenting my latest post I have made a decision: I will remove bread from my daily diet. Too often I over eat.
In my freezer from last September the last gold of Kalix, fish roe, put on crisp bread and slowly enjoyed. Soon time for a new delivery from Karin!
My son and  the PT at SATS Haninge also has told my to remove bread and nuts. I'll give it a try until at least the 1st of January 2016. I am 100 % positive it will give result. I will though make some smoothies on nuts from time to time, but no snacking will be allowed. It's hard to stop once starting...
I will also reduce my intake of pasta. More veggies! More protein!
I feel inspired! Let's go!

Friday, September 4, 2015

Relaxation for good weight loss result

For me stress is a risk for over eating. I need to relax and gain new energy to have a strong mind.
I meditate, I listen to the sound of the sea in the summerhouse, I read magazines with beautiful pictures to calm down.
I have a very stressful, emotional demanding job right now working with children escaping from wars. Some call me mama and it's a great honor and a big responsibility to be an instant mother.
The crisp September air, the last warm sun rays, the bird song is a great tool for mindfulness.
I am not a winter lover so I try to charge my batteries full to go through a long, cold, dark winter here in the very north (130 km from the Arctic Circle).
In this six days break from work I'll spend some time planning my upcoming path of weight loss.
Do you have any advice for me?

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Fat vs muscles

Thanks to yesterdays post I got a nice message from a friend in Germany filled with support and love.
Please share your story with us. We know there are a few people who has been inspired from the ButterflyBattle!
When I meet people I haven't seen in a while the compliment my weight loss and ask how much more I have lost. Nothing is my answer...
But nothing is not the answer for what I have been doing this summer and I did visit the gym!
My body has got firmer and the kilos might have changed from fat to muscles.
Biking is so much easier than in May and I really hope to continue all September.
I need a plan for in door activities this fall/winter.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Russian measurement#6. One small step


Today is the 1th of September. As my Swedish sister Eva Marie, I have no good news from Russia too. My difference between last numbers and today is not a big. I have no choice just put it here.
 I put a difference in 6 points: April, May, June, Jul, August, September.
Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93,5
Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 – 96 -93
Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 – 116 - 112
Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 – 121- 119
Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72
Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 – 31-29 – 31-29
Anyway. Small step – big result. Go ahead.
Check it on October, 1.

Русские замеры 6. Один маленький шаг
Сегодня 1 сентября. Как и моей шведской сестре по несчастью, мне нечем прихвастнуть. Цифры на весах месячной давности и сегодняшние не сильно-то отличаются друг от друга. Разница невелика. И мне ничего не остается, как просто выложить все это.
Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5 – 93, 5
Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 – 96 - 92
Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 – 116 - 112
Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 – 121 - 119
Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72 – 69-72
Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 29-31 – 29-31
Как бы то ни было, маленький шаг – большой результат. Идем дальше.
Замеряемся 1 октября.


The Swedish ninja strikes back!

After a very long summer break, I'm back blogging.
As it's the first of the month I look forward to my Russian sisters latest result from the scale and measuring band. Personally I have no breaking news...
I stick about the same weight and I have been having a lot of time to reflect why.
I still on the contract not eating any fast food/ snacks/candy/cakes with my sons.
That means I had my second summer without ice cream.
In one way I am happy I haven't gained all the more than 30 kilos I lost since January the 1st 2014. It has happened before in my life of dieting.
On the other hand I am sensing some fear losing more weight. This is me. I have been over weight my whole adult life. The excess kilos are probably a shield.
I look in the mirror and see the changes. I can't recognise my self. I am worried about the skin getting loose. What will happen to me? How will I feel? What would I look like?
The next second I am eager to lose more NOW! I have had a fantastic summer biking, walking, swimming. So much easier with less kilos to move around.
It's time to take the next step. Follow my path here at the ButterflyBattle blog!

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Russian measurements#5



WTF. I am trying to be on the road. I am a fitness hard-worker. I am a victim of a diet. I am a good girl. But what going on?  I add one extra kilo and some centimeters around me. Maybe it’s step point or stagnation. I don’t know. But reality is cruel. I am gave beck my fat.
Today is the 1th of August. My numbers are below.
 I put a difference in 5 points: April, May, June, Jul, August.
Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5
Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 - 96
Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 - 116
Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 - 121
Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72
Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 – 31-29
Check it on September, 1.


Русский замер#5
Что происходит? Я держусь изо всех сил. Я пашу в тренажерном зале, я стала жертвой диеты. Я старалась быть хорошей девочкой. И что? Я добавила килограмм и пару сантиметров вокруг себя? Может это точка стояния или стагнации? Я не могу понять. Реальность жестока: я вернула мой жир. Сегодня 1 августа. Мои цифры смотри ниже.
Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5
Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 - 96
Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 - 116
Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 - 121
Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72
Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 29-31
Замеряемся 1 сентября.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

I got the power


I had a day off. The first one this summer. I did nothing, was thinking about nothing and was sleeping and eating whole the day. I am tired this year. In the beginning of our battle I was writing in blog every day. But I put only 2 posts in July. Shame on me. I have only one justify – I still losing weight gram by gram, having trains and keeping a food program. My scales show me yesterday 93 kilos(I started with 106 kilos). Not bad.
I celebrated my 44-th Birthday and have a rest. And I got the power.
I will try to write often. And I worry about my Swedish sister. How are you, my dear? I had a dream with you in main role. I saw in a dream that you are very thin, but was very exhausted. I woke up and thought, maybe it's not so bad to be the big and the beautiful queen. I send you some power. Care about yourself
, dear sister. Keep connect and keep going.

Я перезарядилась
У меня был выходной. Первый за это лето. Я ничего не делала, ни о чем не думала и ела да спала весь день. Я устала за этот год. В начале нашего баттла я писала в блог ежедневно. Но сейчас вот только два поста  за июль. Мне стыдно. У меня есть только одно оправдание – я продолжаю худеть, тренируюсь и стараюсь не жрать, как лошадь. Мои весы показали вчера 93 (вы помните те самые 106 вначале). Не плохо.
Я отметила свое 44-летие. И взяла выходной. И перезарядилась наконец-то.
Я постараюсь писать чаще. И еще я очень переживаю за мою шведскую сестру. Как ты, дорогая? Я видела сон с тобой в главной роли. Ты была худая и обессиленная. Я проснулась и подумала, может не так уж и плохо быть большой и красивой королевой. Я шлю тебе немного моей силы. Береги себя, дорогая сестра. Держим связь и продолжаем.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Love yourself every day


Now when I lost 11 kilos I started to think about love. Why I did not think about this before losing weight? I guess my fat kept me from love emotions. It was my fat house where I was hiding myself. I was closed. It’s getting better now. Step by step, kilo by kilo I open my heart. I am ready to love. Firstly love to myself. All lonely girls want to meet someone to fill emptiness inside. It is a big mistake. That’s why boys avoid lonely girls; they don’t want to be caught in trump.
I red one smart book Arielle Ford about love and fined one good question: if you be a boy would you fall in love with girl like you? Ask yourself about it every day. Behave yourself like girl who love yourself. It’s attracting boys.
My daily life includes match work and match enjoy. I have fan and joy, sport and dance, conversations with many people. I am happy to be me. And sure someone will be happy to be with me. One day
Photo by Nikolay Smirnov
Люби себя каждый день

Сейчас, когда я схуднула на 11 кг, я стала задумываться про любовь. Почему же я не думала о ней до похудения. Я полагаю, мой жир спасал меня от любовных страстей. У меня был домик из жира, где я уютненько пряталась. Я была закрыта. Но сейчас все меняется. Шаг за шагом, килограмм за килограммом я раскрываюсь. И готова опять влюбиться, черт возьми. В первую очередь, в  себя.
Одинокие девчонки хотят встретить свою любовь, чтобы заполнить пустоту внутри себя. Это большая ошибка. Вот почему парни боятся одиноких девчонок, они не хотят быть пойманными в ловушку. Не хотят быть наполнителями пустоты.
Сейчас я читаю одну умную книгу про любовь Ариэль Форд. Ссылка для русских читателей. Можно скачать и прочесть, чтобы сравнить с моим мнением. И поспорить, возможно. В книжке я нашла один хороший вопрос: «Если бы ты была парнем, ты бы влюбилась в саму себя?».  Спрашивайте себя ежедневно. И ведите себя как девочка, любящая и влюбленная в саму себя. Это притягивает парней.
Моя ежедневная жизнь включает много работы и много наслаждения. Я много развлекаюсь, работая, танцую, тренируюсь и тренирую, встречаюсь и общаюсь со множеством людей. Я счастлива быть мною. И уверенна, кто-то будет счастлив быть со мною. Однажды.


                   Для новой работы я освоила диджеинг. И счастлива (Фото Николая Смирнова)



Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Russian measurements#4

Hello again. I came back. I am in. I am on the way. I just had no time to write about my life. Only hot days. Short sleep and fast meal – and go-go-go. But today is the 1th of July. And I promised to check my numbers. And I did it.
 I put a difference in 4 points: April, May, June, July.
Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 11.500 kilos
Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 (-10 )
Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 (-8)
Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 (-12)
Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 (-7, -10)
Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 (2-2)
Check it on August, 1.
Русский замер
И снова здравствуйте. Я вернулась. Я в теме. Я не сошла. Просто не было времени писать.Только горячие дни без еды и сна, только работа-работа-работа. Но сегодня 1 июля. И я обещала проверить мои цифры. И я сделала это.
Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 11.500 кг
Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 (-10 )
Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 (-8)
Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 (-12)
Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 (-7, -10)
Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 (2-2)


Замеряемся 1 августа.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Sweden: Finally in the lake

First swim in the lake
It's heating up in Luleå. Today I couldn't resist to jump into the lake, Kvarnträsket.
Ulrika, my dear friend, took the nice pictures while visiting me.
Since I was 4 years old I have been  spending my summers swimming. I love it. It's a good exercise.
But I prefer outdoor swimming. The paradise like life at the summer house can't take away my thoughts of the people trying to escape from poverty and war over the Mediterranean sea. 2000 is said to be drown this year. Probably a lot more. Many of them can't swim. How afraid they must be. At my new job I meet the children that survived the trip. I get upset when I hear the discussions in EU about immigrants. Especially from countries from where people have been escaping from like Hungary.

My new life without the scale is much better. I get to focus more on the result of the weight loss than a number on my scale. It is inspiring me a lot. I look at my body instead. I try clothes on and am happy. They are fitting fine! I hope for a hot summer with a lot of swimming!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Sweden: Gathering at a fast food restaurant


Former Montessori mothers: Mia, me and Karin!

You might not know about my contract with my older sons. One year without fast food, snacks, candies, cakes and everything unhealthy. The fine if you break: 5000 Swedish kronor (500€)..
Some crazy things we may eat. Like jam. Because Elisha loves it. And dark chocolate, my wish and Joshua argued for two hot dogs a week.
On a shopping raid with Sara, looking for new pillows, we bumped in to some friends we have in common. Johanna, who attended the birth of my youngest son, Karin and Mia, parents from the Montessori school. Mia was also the teacher. We stared having a chat at the store and decided to have  a lunch break together.  I had a hot dog. I seldom go into a fast food restaurant. The contract has now lasted for 18 month, with one week break in January. I don't have any cravings for french fries and hamburgers. But we may eat pizza and hamburgers if made at home. Elisha, PT at SATS Haninge, want to break the habit to grab something unhealthy when hungry on the go.
It was a great rule and it's good not to have  make a decision. It's already made! 

All five friends are on vacation, even though I choose to work on mine...
All of us are very busy during the winter and it was so fun to gather spontaneously.
I hope to meet them later this summer again for a picnic or BBQ.
Karin wants me to paddle kayak with her!
Three of them are English teachers, so you can imagine how I feel writing this...
I hope they tell me how to correct my mistakes.


Seven hours of shopping left Sara and me with sore legs and tired brains.
We ended the day with a dinner to a delayed celebration of her birthday.
A nice fresh shrimp salad. It's really no effort trying to lose weight. Good food starts to become a habit. So does everyday exercise as well. I am happy and I feel good!
The sun  has finally reached to Luleå. I look forward to work on my tan this weekend.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Sweden: Ropes away, full steam ahead.


One change leads to another..
I am getting ready for a new life. Fit and slim.
1st of June I decided to take another life path. Today I left the old dusty way.
The grass are greener. The colors brighter.
The ropes holding me back are gone. I'm flying free as a butterfly.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Sweden: Summer is strawberries

Life without a scale is great! I eat less! I eat healthier. Strawberries is my number one tool in this battle against overweight Sweden vs Russia.  I'm a little concerned about what my Russian sister is up to. I haven't heard from her in a long time.
To blog about our fight against the kilos are a true challenge. Natasha's and my personality makes us want to deliver. The stress made me skip the scale for a month. My body and mind tells me a different story. I feel good. I am stronger. I am happy. I'll stay on this track. Working the whole summer will get me moving even though I hope to spend a few lazy days at the sun bed.
It's 7 am. I'm on my way to work. Too far to bike ride 40 km, but 5 of them I spend on my bike.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Sweden: Honoluleå, but we can't fake the weather...

Honoluleå. The artic city turning tropical this summer.


Two month ago ago I was concerned about not exercising. Today I wake up every morning with a burning sensation in my legs and behind. It comes from a lot of biking and walking.
I am getting stronger, faster, fitter!
Slowly but sure some thoughts about continuing with my arms, shoulders, back and stomach has arisen.
Natasha, my blog sister in Petrozavodsk suggested rubber bands. My son, the PT at SATS Haninge, Sweden introduced me to this a long time ago. I guess I am ready now. I will get some.

After a few wonderful summer days. Luleå is back on zero. Well not zero degrees but 15 with no sun in sight and rain to await.
It's a pity. A summer play ground for all ages is established in the harbour of Luleå.
You can rent a kayak, play volley ball or table tennis. Sit under the faked palm trees on the temporary beach. In the 80s we called Luleå Honoluleå...
I prefer the summerhouse in Kvarnträsket. I still haven't made my first swim for the summer.
Paradise sea

Monday, June 22, 2015

Sweden: Mosquito target


It's raining in Boden, Sweden and I am surrounded by hungry mosquitoes while waiting for the buss back to Luleå. Another wonderful day at work. I'm learning new things, meeting nice people, exploring a new city. I'm testing new food but is busy and eat less than at home. I had a business meeting this morning and had to iron my blouse... This doesn't occur to often. For many years I couldn't find my iron. I hate it.

In the morning heat the blouse stayed good for one hour..Enough for the meeting.
I recalled a memory for more than 20 years ago when I moved together with my oldest sons daddy. -You don't have to cook for me or wash my clothes, he said. At 25 I didn't understand it. It's later in life I have realized many man need a women to replace their mother...
I feel good today! I will get rid of all my garments hanging on tents on me! Even if that mean I have to iron. I have motivation and feel focused on the Butterfly Battle!
I miss my sister in Petrozavodsk.  Natasha! How are you?

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Sweden: Too big!

Cruising ship visiting Luleå





Biking has become an everyday activity. Without effort I take a ride from my home to mothers summerhouse. More than 10 km for sure. I love to bike in the sun. Finally!
Summer is here! There is no need to go to the West Indies at the moment for the heat, but I imagine a nice trip on the cruising ship above. It's filled with 1000 Germans. They love Scandinavian. Exotic for them I guess. I have been to Cuba and twice to Jamaica. I would love to visit some of the other islands. And why not on a ship? Well this summer my paradise sea will be Kvarnträsket, Luleå. And I will row a little boat.

My friend Niclas was complaining about my outfits. Too big! And yes! He's right! How wonderful!



Saturday, June 20, 2015

Sweden: Midsummer magic

Seven flowers under my pillow
The Swedes believe in old myths. One is to pick seven flowers the midsummer night and put them under your pillow to dream about your future man.

I gave it a try and the first man popping up in my dreams was my gay friend Niclas.
Next dream was crowed by men. I could not see clear into my future. Never mind. I am so happy on my own. No worries, no fights, no cross words, boring TV-shows and depressing blues or in worst case; Leonard Cohen. No lies, no manipulate behaviour, no waiting in vain. What a relief!
I am sure one of the men from last nights dream will show up when I am ready. My focus right now is weight loss. Nothing can stop me!

From the advices Ragna and Rose-Marie gave me I have decided not to check my weight in one month. I'm getting frustrated not seeing the number change. The next 30 days I will relax, enjoy the sun finally here and bike a lot. The heat is making me less hungry. I will check my measurements. Ewa reminded me that muscles are heavier than fat!
I will write a blog post everyday. To reflect about the Butterfly Battle and the challenge to lose weight is good for me. How are you my Russian sister in Petrozavodsk? Busy enjoying the midnight sun?
At midnight midsummer night, Luleå, Sweden

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Sweden: Goodbye but not farwell...


 For three years I have been working with Ann-Sofie. Yesterday was the last day. Well I have an offer to continue. But I'm waiting for a response to finally make the decision to where life will take me in the future.
 We said no definite farewell, Karin and me. I always have problem separating from people I like.
 Mariana, Magdalena and Helena will stay in my heart forever, no matter what happens. So many laughs, so much love made strong bonds.
 To work with people you really like is a blessing. Ann-Sofie and Cecilia have made me smile every day. I have a strong separation anxiety. As this job only is part time I need more work. Either I get another or I combine my old with a new. Time will tell.

I guess I'm approaching a mid life crisis. What have I accomplished so far, where am I heading, after 23 years as a full time mother what will I do now when my kids turn into adults?
In only a couple of years a new era is starting where I don't have economic response for anyone else or to cook, clean plates, wash clothes...
What will I do?
One thing for sure: lose weight! Now!
The scale makes my crazy. One kilo down. Next day one up. Third day down again, and then up...
I haven't  exercised as much as I do now for many years. I walk, I bike, my legs are constantly burning...
I get a lot of compliments. People tell me I look slimmer. My old clothes are too big.
I am inpatient, I am frustrated, I am desperate. I want to lose all extra kilo now!
I need to find a solution. I need a talk with my son and PT Elisha Turner at SATS Haninge in the south of Sweden. I need a plan...


Monday, June 15, 2015

Butterflies everywhere

Before my battle I never noticed that butterfly is everywhere. Now I know my life is full of different butterflies. When I see the next I always think about my Swedish butterfly Eva Marie and smile. I suppose our meeting was not a randomnicity. My Swede is my chance to change, my landmark and barometer.
Yesterday we had a small shopping with my daughter Anastasia. We bought sport shoes, necklaces, earrings. One of it was butterflies. Of course. I started collect various of moth, take a pictures and bay a goods with prints of butterflies.



I start a new page of my Way. While my beauty skills are fixed I want to add one impotent goal in my BB-project. English. As you see my English is very poor. When I go abroad I speak English enough for drinking, laughing, hags and some flirt. No more. I need English for everything. For freedom, for future.
I graduated my 21-s Samurai Way, 21-s BBC Way and now stand beyond the English Road! I guess English Highway.
I announce 21 days of daily English  (not less 1 hour). When we will meet with Eva Marie in Sweden next April I should speak like prime minister of UK (not like Vladimir Mutko).


Бабочки повсюду

До моей битвы я не замечала, что бабочки повсюду. Сейчас я знаю, моя жизнь полна бабочек. Когда я вижу очередную, я думаю о моей шведской бабочке Эве Марии и улыбаюсь. Я полагаю, наша встреча была не случайной.  Моя шведка – это мой шанс измениться, мой ориентир и мой барометр.
Вчера мы с дочной Настей немного пошопились. Мы купили кеды, украшения и серьги. Одни сережки были в форме бабочек. Конечно же. Я стала коллекционировать картинки , делать разные снимки и покупать вещи с бабочками.


Я начинаю новую страницу моей биографии. Пока мои навыки красоты устоялись, я хочу добавить еще одну опцию, один важный момент к моей ББ-программе.  Английский. Как вы заметили, мой инглиш бедноват. Когда я выезжаю за границу, я могу объясниться, как пройти в  библиотеку, могу поржать, выпить, пообниматься. Для этого моего английского достаточно. Но мне нужен хороший английский. Для всего. Для свободы, для будущего. Я окончила 21 день Самурайского образования, 21 день красоткиного образования. И теперь я стою перед английским путем. Я бы сказала, перед английским скоростным шоссе.

Я анонсирую 21 день нон-стоп инглиша. В день не меньше часа. Когда мы встретимся с Эвой Марией в Швеции в апреле 2016 года, я должна говорить как премьер министр Британии, а не как Владимир Мутко.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

The Ninja Diet: Swedish scale down...



For the last three days i have been working non stop. Quick result in weight loss. Not much food and a lot of running around seems to be the solution.
My working week ended in church. My church. Situated at Mjölkudden, Luleå,  Sweden where I grew up. It's a pale blue round building with a tower. All looks a lot like a mosque. The sun coming in from the windows surrounding the whole church makes it bright. You can see the trees outside.
Last Friday I attended the funeral of my best friends mother in the church and a ray of sunshine found her coffin.

Even though I am a Buddhist I like going to church. Yesterday when school ended Luleå, Sweden there is a nice ceremony with the summer psalm "Den blomstertid nu kommer". This is the the real start of summer but unfortunately it's still not here...Cold, windy, rainy...

Thursday, June 11, 2015

BBC#21. Lost 2 kilos and boots


I finished my BBC program. It was not clear. I stretched it for one month instead 21 day. No way. But I fixed only one – good habits cleaning my room and making beauty mask. Bike was not every day because laziness and rain…But tried, tried and tried.
In fin of my BBC – my weight is constantly slow down. It’s my first result. The main result.
Tomorrow I’ll touch my friend Eva Marie and shake her. Reload, sister. Restart. Recover. Return,
 baby. Don’t give up.
My last three
Bike. Yes. I was cool – with flowers and food in my basket.
Beauty. Yes. Sauna. Mask.
Clean. I got rid of old boots. Stop reminds me some moments. Let’s go in future!

Я закончила мою программу Велосипед. Красота. Чистота. Это был не чисто исполненный эксперимент, честно-то говоря. Я растянула 21-дневную программу на месяц. А чо делать. Но я закрепила одно: чистить комнату каждый день и делать маски. Велосипед был не каждый день – лень и дождь сделали свое. Но я старалась и старалась.
В итоге моего ВВС – мой вес медленно ползет вниз. Это мое первое и главное достижение. Завтра я достану Эву Марию и встряхну ее. Перезагрузись, сестра. Начни заново, вернись, все прощу, детка. И давай не кисни.
мои последние три:
1.       Велосипед. Да. Вчера моя корзинка была переполнена цветами и едой.
2.       Красота. Да. Сауна, маски. Бла-бла-бла
3.       Чистка. Выкинула старые башмаки. Хватит греть душу воспоминаниями. Вперед в будущее.






Wednesday, June 10, 2015

The Ninja Diet: Davaj!


Tough times in the Batterfly battle.
I need to find a good way forward. Feels like I'm stuck in the space between two job, one leg in the past another in the future. Also between spring and summer.  Still cold here in the very north of the world... Almost in the middle of June and I can't use all the summer clothes I now fit in.
 I need to charge my batteries with sun to gain some more energy. The heat makes me less hungry! Also my scale is like glued to the same number. The past is a loss of more than 30 kilos. In the future I need to lose even more...

I want to rush forward.
I give it one week. Or to be exact: 8 days.
I finish one job, I invite the summer and I figure out how to move forward in this battle against the over weight. I'm not down for counting. I will never give up!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

The ninja Diet: The lunch date

In Natashas last blog post "her" president is posing with a puppy. To look human I guess.
 At a lunch date today I had the chance to hold Rose-Marie's baby. Not the one from the horror movie. This is a true love story! A wonderful little boy called Johannes, 5 month, with a proud mother. Her active mother hood is starting when my is about to end. Well I have a few years left as caregiver. I will never stop being a mother and I look forward to be a grandmother in the future.
At least for a few years I am hoping to be Marie again, without obligations, living where ever I want, doing what I wish for the moment. As a single mother the responsibility and hard work has been tough through two decades. I love every minute of it and the best thing in my life has always been my three beautiful sons.

Rose-Marie is one of my oldest friends. We had a great time in our early teens writing a music magazine together. She reminded me of the fact that I had to be at home no later than 11 pm and how we rushed home from the city for me to be in time. Rose-Marie's mother had no curfew...
One of these days we will open up my diaries and the box filled with memories from the 80s.

My good friend Javier showed up, also in company with a borrowed baby!




Monday, June 8, 2015

BBC#20. WTF


All people in my city, especially girls support me in my project. All of them imagine that I will come to Sweden and get a price for win in Butterfly Battle. May be it’s could be a Viking or cosmetics? I don’t know. Sweet dreams. I suppose all our fantasy can be broken. Russian parliament (Duma) passed a law about banning travel abroad for all Russians. What is it? Back in USSR? Crisis of the Putin’s regime of just marasmus?
Anyway I am going to finish my ButterflyBattly one year later with Putin as a president or some who…My system is creating project in contrast to the destructive anti-people laws.
My points
1. Bike. No. Cold and rainy
2. Beauty. Yes. Sauna again
3. Clean. Deleted the great mess in my room.

Чозанах
Мой город, особенно девочки, поддерживают меня и мой баттл. Большинство представляет, как я приеду в Швецию и вырву из рук шведов победу в Битве Бабочек. Моим призом будет викинг или косметика. Не знаю. Наивная простота – верю в мечту. Я полагаю, наши мечты могут разбиться о нашу Госдуму, которая приняла на днях закон, запрещающий всем россиянам выезд за границу. Что это? Назад в совок? Кризис путинского режима или обострение маразма?
Как бы то ни было, а я собираюсь закончить Битву Бабочек через год с президентом Путиным или кем-то другим…Моя система креативна и созидательна, в отличие от разрушительного антинародного закона.
Мои пунктики:
1. Велосипед. Нет. Дождь и холодрыга
2. Красота. Да. Снова парилась в сауне.
3. Чистка. Убрала бардак в комнате. Садись, пять.



The Ninja Diet: Summer without sauna but soon a swim in the lake!


Kvarnträsket

My dear friend Natasha and all readers of the Butterfly Battle blog!

This is where I relax and reflect. In the summer house of my mother in Luleå. To the left, the sauna, but I am not a big fan. I prefer swimming! Last years I have been having a early start of the season. This year I haven't even dipped my toe in the water. Too cold.
Friday my friend Ulrika picked me up. She wanted to take a walk in the forest surrounding the lake.
It was beautiful. Unfortunately the weather here has been so bad. Not much time to enjoy the nature in good weather. Today is another gray day almost by the Arctic circle....

I'm drinking my ginger/lemon/ celery drink. It's 5.40 in the morning. Yesterday I was meditating with a great teacher, Trudy Fredriksson, a Buddhist for more than 40 years.
This will be a very busy week on two jobs. It's hard for me as well to have time to find inspiration for our battle against over weight. I need to find out something revolutionary as the scale refuse to go down in number. My other good friend Sara is comforting me talking about muscles heavier than fat. I hope so. I have moved around for a month by foot and on the bike.
The midnight sun in Kvarnträsket

Sunday, June 7, 2015

BBC#19. Sauna for business lady


My dear EvaMarie. Where did you find a time for you job, beauty, garden and Ninja diet? I have no idea where I can charge my battery for next step.  I tired so much and need to relax and reload. Only sport and bike help me to be on track. My special Russian point of beauty program is a sauna. We have the sauna in our GYM. It’s place for chatting, laughing, gossips, supporting each other. I love these 10 minutes after training. After sauna I look younger and fleshier. Yesterday I rested in the sauna and had a young face and pink cheeks. And what about you, sister?  Do you like something hot like sauna?
My 3.
Bike. Yes. Every day and every night
Beauty. Not constantly, but time after time
Clean. Yes. Some broken furniture gone.

Сауна для деловой колбасы
Дорогая Эва Мария, где ты берешь время для работы, красоты, сада, Нинзя диеты? У меня нет идей, где я могу зарядить батарейку для своего следующего шага. Я так устала, мне надо бы отдохнуть и перезагрузиться. Только спорт и велосипед помогают быть в седле. Мой специальный русский секрет красоты неописуемой – это сауна. В том зале, где я преподают у своих девочек аэробику, есть сауна. Это место для болтовни, смеха, сплетен, поддержки друг друга. Я люблю эти 0 минут после тренировки. После сауны я выгляжу свежей и юной. Вчера я парилась в сауне, после чего мои щечки порозовели, а лицо помолодело. А ты, дорогая шведская сестра, любишь ли ты сауну, как люблю ее я? Любишь ты кое-что погорячее?
Мои три:
Велосипед. Да. Денно и нощно
Красота. Да. Не постоянно, но время от времени. Вот сауна, опять-таки

Выкидон. Немного поломанной мебели ушло из дома навсегда.

Saturday, June 6, 2015

The Ninja Diet: Not a patriot on the National day of Sweden

 The 6th of June is celebrated in honour of the election of King Gustav Vasa in 1523; the foundation of modern Sweden... For many years this wasn't to heavy celebrated in Sweden.
Now there are some flag waving events in Luleå.
I stayed home in my garden and enjoyed the blooming of the hack berry trees.
My friend Ulrika was here digging up some lilac plants and was kind to take the picture above of me.
The flower garland the florist master Örjan Huhta showed me how to make at his class Thursday night.
I love Sweden but I feel more like a cosmopolitan than a patriot.
My scale is still stuck on the same number. I might need to change batteries...