I got the power

I had a day off. The first one this summer. I did nothing, was thinking about nothing and was sleeping and eating whole the day. I am tired this year. In the beginning of our battle I was writing in blog every day. But I put only 2 posts in July. Shame on me. I have only one justify – I still losing weight gram by gram, having trains and keeping a food program. My scales show me yesterday 93 kilos(I started with 106 kilos). Not bad.
I celebrated my 44-th Birthday and have a rest. And I got the power.
I will try to write often. And I worry about my Swedish sister. How are you, my dear? I had a dream with you in main role. I saw in a dream that you are very thin, but was very exhausted. I woke up and thought, maybe it's not so bad to be the big and the beautiful queen. I send you some power. Care about yourself, dear sister. Keep connect and keep going.

Я перезарядилась
У меня был выходной. Первый за это лето. Я ничего не делала, ни о чем не думала и ела да спала весь день. Я устала за этот год. В начале нашего баттла я писала в блог ежедневно. Но сейчас вот только два поста  за июль. Мне стыдно. У меня есть только одно оправдание – я продолжаю худеть, тренируюсь и стараюсь не жрать, как лошадь. Мои весы показали вчера 93 (вы помните те самые 106 вначале). Не плохо.
Я отметила свое 44-летие. И взяла выходной. И перезарядилась наконец-то.
Я постараюсь писать чаще. И еще я очень переживаю за мою шведскую сестру. Как ты, дорогая? Я видела сон с тобой в главной роли. Ты была худая и обессиленная. Я проснулась и подумала, может не так уж и плохо быть большой и красивой королевой. Я шлю тебе немного моей силы. Береги себя, дорогая сестра. Держим связь и продолжаем.

Love yourself every day

Now when I lost 11 kilos I started to think about love. Why I did not think about this before losing weight? I guess my fat kept me from love emotions. It was my fat house where I was hiding myself. I was closed. It’s getting better now. Step by step, kilo by kilo I open my heart. I am ready to love. Firstly love to myself. All lonely girls want to meet someone to fill emptiness inside. It is a big mistake. That’s why boys avoid lonely girls; they don’t want to be caught in trump.
I red one smart book Arielle Ford about love and fined one good question: if you be a boy would you fall in love with girl like you? Ask yourself about it every day. Behave yourself like girl who love yourself. It’s attracting boys.
My daily life includes match work and match enjoy. I have fan and joy, sport and dance, conversations with many people. I am happy to be me. And sure someone will be happy to be with me. One dayPhoto by Nikolay Smirnov

Люби себя каждый день

Сейчас, когда я схуднула на 11 кг, я стала задумываться про любовь. Почему же я не думала о ней до похудения. Я полагаю, мой жир спасал меня от любовных страстей. У меня был домик из жира, где я уютненько пряталась. Я была закрыта. Но сейчас все меняется. Шаг за шагом, килограмм за килограммом я раскрываюсь. И готова опять влюбиться, черт возьми. В первую очередь, в  себя.
Одинокие девчонки хотят встретить свою любовь, чтобы заполнить пустоту внутри себя. Это большая ошибка. Вот почему парни боятся одиноких девчонок, они не хотят быть пойманными в ловушку. Не хотят быть наполнителями пустоты.
Сейчас я читаю одну умную книгу про любовь Ариэль Форд. Ссылка для русских читателей. Можно скачать и прочесть, чтобы сравнить с моим мнением. И поспорить, возможно. В книжке я нашла один хороший вопрос: «Если бы ты была парнем, ты бы влюбилась в саму себя?».  Спрашивайте себя ежедневно. И ведите себя как девочка, любящая и влюбленная в саму себя. Это притягивает парней.
Моя ежедневная жизнь включает много работы и много наслаждения. Я много развлекаюсь, работая, танцую, тренируюсь и тренирую, встречаюсь и общаюсь со множеством людей. Я счастлива быть мною. И уверенна, кто-то будет счастлив быть со мною. Однажды.

                   Для новой работы я освоила диджеинг. И счастлива (Фото Николая Смирнова)

Samurai#18. Sweet dreams to good girls and spicy dreams to bad girls

Very calm and peaceful day. Still keep my points. Still fell my Swedish friend Eva Maria. Still lose weight gram by gram. I have 3 days before the end of my experiment with Samurai Way. 21 days keeping 5 points. It makes me better and more responsible to myself.

5 points it’s like a 5 rules of game. You just play, have fun and win if you play good and know rules. My family, my friends and different people even strangers on the street support me and wish a good results of Butterfly Battle.
Today I go to bed early. It’s rare situation. Write my resume and will dive into the pillow. Beautiful girls must sleep enough. Wish a sweet dreams to good girls and spicy dreams to bad girls.

My poins:

1.       Early wake up. Yes. 6.30

2.       Nutrition. 7.00 – coffee. 8.30 – eggs, carrot, 13.30 – potato with meat, 17.00 – chicken with beetroot salad, 21.30 – apple, yogurt.

3.       Sport. Walking on the street a lot

4.       Flirting combine with walking on the street

5.       Some interesting morning experience with meditation.

Спокойный мирный день. Я все еще держу пять пунктов. Все еще чувствую поддержку со стороны Эвы Марии. Все еще теряю вес грамм за граммом. У меня осталось три дня до окончания 21-дневного эксперимента Пути Самурая, когда я пытаюсь натренировать 5 пунктов, которые, возможно, станут привычкой. Это делает меня лучше и ответственней перед самой собой.
Пять пунктов это как пять правил игры. Ты просто играешь. И выигрываешь, если ты хороший игрок и знаешь правила. Моя семья, мои друзья, даже просто незнакомцы на улице желают мне удачи в проекте «Битва Бабочек» и хороших результатов в конце.
Сегодня я лягу раньше. Вот допишу это и нырну в подушку. Красивые девушки должны спать вдоволь. Желаю сладких снов хорошим девочкам и перченых снов плохим девочкам.
Мои пункты:
1. Подьем. Рано. В 6.30

2. Еда. 7.00 – кофе, 8.30 – яйца, морковь, 13.30 – картошка с мясом, 17.30 – цыпленок, салат из свеклы, 21.30 – яблоко, кефир.
3. Много прогулок по городу.

4. Флирт во время прогулок по городу.

5. Нечто интересное во время утренней медитации.

The Ninja Diet #8: Thank you for the love bombing

It's said it's easier to reach a goal if you tell your friends about it, no matter what you are aiming for.
Last days my friends have been love bombing me with compliments for the weight loss. Many of them at  Facebook commenting my new look, others at work, in the street, at the bus. Every "good job", go girl", keep on"," I'm following your blog" is giving me more power to keep up the fighting spirit in the Butterfly Battle.
I am touched over how fantastic people are to me. Some are close friends, others I never would have expected so generous take time to support me! I am surprised and very grateful for everything.
I am sending a lot a love to all of you! And in case I don't know you personal yet, please feel free to write you comments about the Butterfly Battle Blog here. Of course it is for everyone!

I am thinking about choices and priorities made in life and how you sometimes cast pearls before swine. Nothing is actually a waste if you believe in Karma. What comes around goes around.
But when the energy is put in something good for yourself and others it makes everything brighter.
There are many people asking about how Natasha and I are losing weight and about what food we are eating. It's not a secret everything is written here. Just look back in the blog!

Exercise has been my weak spot so far. I just can't find motivation to start. My son and the PT at SATS Haninge, Elisha, is 1000 km away from Luleå; Sweden. How lucky I am having friends ready to give me a push in the right direction.
Yesterday Carola had booked a walk in the hood. She cancelled it, but as I had my mind set on it I did it anyway. The evening was fabulous with sun and glittering water. I even meditated outside to the songs of happy spring birds.

This morning one of my oldest friends Rose-Marie asked my to join her and her baby son for a walk.
Rose-Marie made up with her over weight and won the battle. She's now slim and fast. Walking about 10 km daily. She is a good company as a long time friend and she also knows how hard it is to exercise with a lot of extra kilos to drag around. We had serious talks and I walked for one hour! Fantastic! She was kind to take the picture of me above and also this selfie:

The Ninja result of yesterday:
1. Meal plan: no problem
2. Inspirational reading: about fat; good and bad
3. Meditation: wonderful outdoor session in the sun
4. Exercise: YES-finally, a walk
5. Life changing: small adjustments leading to a great change

Very inspiring of your mood, sister. It's my greeting from sunny Petrozavodsk just now.

The Ninja Diet #3: With a little help from some friends...

Yesterday our blog had almost 800 page visits. My facebook was over flooded by comments from friends supporting me in this "over weight fight".  How wonderful to know you are all with me!
This time I will reach my goal!

This is the fourth day of the meal plan written by my son Elisha, Personal Trainer at SATS Haninge, Sweden.
It's easy. Not much thinking about what and when to eat. Breakfast and lunch is the same every day.
Dinner 200 g fish or 200 g chicken. As I love cooking and to create meals I try to do something tasty out of this.
As I have been over eating for so many years I am happy over the restricted amount: 1800 kilo calories a day.
I am not hungry as you can see on the pictures in my earlier posts it's quite an amount of food.
It's the protein making me full. And the lack of a lot of carbs.
The Russian Samurai an blog co writer Natasha in Pertozavodsk, Russia, is going to try out Elishas meal plan. She has felt a lot of hunger earlier. I am excited to hear if this will change after some more chicken and fish. If mixed with a lot of veggies it makes a lot of food. She already eats eggs and cottage cheese. Great!

I have heard the next Barents Press meeting will be held the 17-20  March. I look forward to meet Natasha again when we both have lost a lot of extra kilos. But hard work are in front of us! The summer is soon here and I look forward to fresh vegetables and fruits/berries.

Today we are welcoming the spring with bonfires (and scaring away old ghosts).
To clean out bad energies and people making you feel bad is a way to success. I am happy to see how good I am 2015 compared to 2013!

The Ninja goals of yesterday:
1. Meal plan: check
2. Inspirational reading: Schlank ohne Diäte- in German....
3. Morning meditation: short but good
4. Exercise: no...Soon...
5. Changes: took a step toward a new future. Answer in June...