I got the power

I had a day off. The first one this summer. I did nothing, was thinking about nothing and was sleeping and eating whole the day. I am tired this year. In the beginning of our battle I was writing in blog every day. But I put only 2 posts in July. Shame on me. I have only one justify – I still losing weight gram by gram, having trains and keeping a food program. My scales show me yesterday 93 kilos(I started with 106 kilos). Not bad.
I celebrated my 44-th Birthday and have a rest. And I got the power.
I will try to write often. And I worry about my Swedish sister. How are you, my dear? I had a dream with you in main role. I saw in a dream that you are very thin, but was very exhausted. I woke up and thought, maybe it's not so bad to be the big and the beautiful queen. I send you some power. Care about yourself, dear sister. Keep connect and keep going.

Я перезарядилась
У меня был выходной. Первый за это лето. Я ничего не делала, ни о чем не думала и ела да спала весь день. Я устала за этот год. В начале нашего баттла я писала в блог ежедневно. Но сейчас вот только два поста  за июль. Мне стыдно. У меня есть только одно оправдание – я продолжаю худеть, тренируюсь и стараюсь не жрать, как лошадь. Мои весы показали вчера 93 (вы помните те самые 106 вначале). Не плохо.
Я отметила свое 44-летие. И взяла выходной. И перезарядилась наконец-то.
Я постараюсь писать чаще. И еще я очень переживаю за мою шведскую сестру. Как ты, дорогая? Я видела сон с тобой в главной роли. Ты была худая и обессиленная. Я проснулась и подумала, может не так уж и плохо быть большой и красивой королевой. Я шлю тебе немного моей силы. Береги себя, дорогая сестра. Держим связь и продолжаем.

Sweden: Midsummer magic

Seven flowers under my pillow

The Swedes believe in old myths. One is to pick seven flowers the midsummer night and put them under your pillow to dream about your future man.

I gave it a try and the first man popping up in my dreams was my gay friend Niclas.
Next dream was crowed by men. I could not see clear into my future. Never mind. I am so happy on my own. No worries, no fights, no cross words, boring TV-shows and depressing blues or in worst case; Leonard Cohen. No lies, no manipulate behaviour, no waiting in vain. What a relief!
I am sure one of the men from last nights dream will show up when I am ready. My focus right now is weight loss. Nothing can stop me!

From the advices Ragna and Rose-Marie gave me I have decided not to check my weight in one month. I'm getting frustrated not seeing the number change. The next 30 days I will relax, enjoy the sun finally here and bike a lot. The heat is making me less hungry. I will check my measurements. Ewa reminded me that muscles are heavier than fat!
I will write a blog post everyday. To reflect about the Butterfly Battle and the challenge to lose weight is good for me. How are you my Russian sister in Petrozavodsk? Busy enjoying the midnight sun?

At midnight midsummer night, Luleå, Sweden