Russian measurements#5

WTF. I am trying to be on the road. I am a fitness hard-worker. I am a victim of a diet. I am a good girl. But what going on?  I add one extra kilo and some centimeters around me. Maybe it’s step point or stagnation. I don’t know. But reality is cruel. I am gave beck my fat.
Today is the 1th of August. My numbers are below.

 I put a difference in 5 points: April, May, June, Jul, August.

Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5

Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 - 96

Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 - 116

Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 - 121

Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72

Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 – 31-29

Check it on September, 1.

Русский замер#5

Что происходит? Я держусь изо всех сил. Я пашу в тренажерном зале, я стала жертвой диеты. Я старалась быть хорошей девочкой. И что? Я добавила килограмм и пару сантиметров вокруг себя? Может это точка стояния или стагнации? Я не могу понять. Реальность жестока: я вернула мой жир. Сегодня 1 августа. Мои цифры смотри ниже.

Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 94,5

Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 - 96

Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 - 116

Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 - 121

Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 – 69-72

Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 29-31
Замеряемся 1 сентября.

I got the power

I had a day off. The first one this summer. I did nothing, was thinking about nothing and was sleeping and eating whole the day. I am tired this year. In the beginning of our battle I was writing in blog every day. But I put only 2 posts in July. Shame on me. I have only one justify – I still losing weight gram by gram, having trains and keeping a food program. My scales show me yesterday 93 kilos(I started with 106 kilos). Not bad.
I celebrated my 44-th Birthday and have a rest. And I got the power.
I will try to write often. And I worry about my Swedish sister. How are you, my dear? I had a dream with you in main role. I saw in a dream that you are very thin, but was very exhausted. I woke up and thought, maybe it's not so bad to be the big and the beautiful queen. I send you some power. Care about yourself, dear sister. Keep connect and keep going.

Я перезарядилась
У меня был выходной. Первый за это лето. Я ничего не делала, ни о чем не думала и ела да спала весь день. Я устала за этот год. В начале нашего баттла я писала в блог ежедневно. Но сейчас вот только два поста  за июль. Мне стыдно. У меня есть только одно оправдание – я продолжаю худеть, тренируюсь и стараюсь не жрать, как лошадь. Мои весы показали вчера 93 (вы помните те самые 106 вначале). Не плохо.
Я отметила свое 44-летие. И взяла выходной. И перезарядилась наконец-то.
Я постараюсь писать чаще. И еще я очень переживаю за мою шведскую сестру. Как ты, дорогая? Я видела сон с тобой в главной роли. Ты была худая и обессиленная. Я проснулась и подумала, может не так уж и плохо быть большой и красивой королевой. Я шлю тебе немного моей силы. Береги себя, дорогая сестра. Держим связь и продолжаем.

Love yourself every day

Now when I lost 11 kilos I started to think about love. Why I did not think about this before losing weight? I guess my fat kept me from love emotions. It was my fat house where I was hiding myself. I was closed. It’s getting better now. Step by step, kilo by kilo I open my heart. I am ready to love. Firstly love to myself. All lonely girls want to meet someone to fill emptiness inside. It is a big mistake. That’s why boys avoid lonely girls; they don’t want to be caught in trump.
I red one smart book Arielle Ford about love and fined one good question: if you be a boy would you fall in love with girl like you? Ask yourself about it every day. Behave yourself like girl who love yourself. It’s attracting boys.
My daily life includes match work and match enjoy. I have fan and joy, sport and dance, conversations with many people. I am happy to be me. And sure someone will be happy to be with me. One dayPhoto by Nikolay Smirnov

Люби себя каждый день

Сейчас, когда я схуднула на 11 кг, я стала задумываться про любовь. Почему же я не думала о ней до похудения. Я полагаю, мой жир спасал меня от любовных страстей. У меня был домик из жира, где я уютненько пряталась. Я была закрыта. Но сейчас все меняется. Шаг за шагом, килограмм за килограммом я раскрываюсь. И готова опять влюбиться, черт возьми. В первую очередь, в  себя.
Одинокие девчонки хотят встретить свою любовь, чтобы заполнить пустоту внутри себя. Это большая ошибка. Вот почему парни боятся одиноких девчонок, они не хотят быть пойманными в ловушку. Не хотят быть наполнителями пустоты.
Сейчас я читаю одну умную книгу про любовь Ариэль Форд. Ссылка для русских читателей. Можно скачать и прочесть, чтобы сравнить с моим мнением. И поспорить, возможно. В книжке я нашла один хороший вопрос: «Если бы ты была парнем, ты бы влюбилась в саму себя?».  Спрашивайте себя ежедневно. И ведите себя как девочка, любящая и влюбленная в саму себя. Это притягивает парней.
Моя ежедневная жизнь включает много работы и много наслаждения. Я много развлекаюсь, работая, танцую, тренируюсь и тренирую, встречаюсь и общаюсь со множеством людей. Я счастлива быть мною. И уверенна, кто-то будет счастлив быть со мною. Однажды.

                   Для новой работы я освоила диджеинг. И счастлива (Фото Николая Смирнова)

Russian measurements#4

Hello again. I came back. I am in. I am on the way. I just had no time to write about my life. Only hot days. Short sleep and fast meal – and go-go-go. But today is the 1th of July. And I promised to check my numbers. And I did it.
 I put a difference in 4 points: April, May, June, July.

Weight 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 11.500 kilos

Waist 105 centimeter – 103 – 100 – 95 (-10 )

Breast volume – 123 cm – 121 – 118 – 115 (-8)

Buttocks – 132 cm – 128 – 125 – 120 (-12)

Tights – 77 left, 81 right 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 (-7, -10)

Upper arms – 34 – 33-32, 32-31-30 (2-2)

Check it on August, 1.

Русский замер

И снова здравствуйте. Я вернулась. Я в теме. Я не сошла. Просто не было времени писать.Только горячие дни без еды и сна, только работа-работа-работа. Но сегодня 1 июля. И я обещала проверить мои цифры. И я сделала это.

Вес 105,9 – 102, 0 – 98.8 – 94,4 – 11.500 кг

Талия 105 см  – 103 – 100 - 95 (-10 )

Грудь – 123 см – 121 – 118 - 115 (-8)

Ягодицы – 132 см – 128 – 125 -  120 (-12)

Бедра – 77 правое, 81 левое 75-80 – 74-78 - 70-71 (-7, -10)

Руки – 34 – 33, 32-31 - 31-30 (2-2)

Замеряемся 1 августа.

Sweden: Finally in the lake

First swim in the lake

It's heating up in Luleå. Today I couldn't resist to jump into the lake, Kvarnträsket.
Ulrika, my dear friend, took the nice pictures while visiting me.
Since I was 4 years old I have been  spending my summers swimming. I love it. It's a good exercise.
But I prefer outdoor swimming. The paradise like life at the summer house can't take away my thoughts of the people trying to escape from poverty and war over the Mediterranean sea. 2000 is said to be drown this year. Probably a lot more. Many of them can't swim. How afraid they must be. At my new job I meet the children that survived the trip. I get upset when I hear the discussions in EU about immigrants. Especially from countries from where people have been escaping from like Hungary.

My new life without the scale is much better. I get to focus more on the result of the weight loss than a number on my scale. It is inspiring me a lot. I look at my body instead. I try clothes on and am happy. They are fitting fine! I hope for a hot summer with a lot of swimming!

Sweden: Gathering at a fast food restaurant

Former Montessori mothers: Mia, me and Karin!

You might not know about my contract with my older sons. One year without fast food, snacks, candies, cakes and everything unhealthy. The fine if you break: 5000 Swedish kronor (500€)..
Some crazy things we may eat. Like jam. Because Elisha loves it. And dark chocolate, my wish and Joshua argued for two hot dogs a week.
On a shopping raid with Sara, looking for new pillows, we bumped in to some friends we have in common. Johanna, who attended the birth of my youngest son, Karin and Mia, parents from the Montessori school. Mia was also the teacher. We stared having a chat at the store and decided to have  a lunch break together.  I had a hot dog. I seldom go into a fast food restaurant. The contract has now lasted for 18 month, with one week break in January. I don't have any cravings for french fries and hamburgers. But we may eat pizza and hamburgers if made at home. Elisha, PT at SATS Haninge, want to break the habit to grab something unhealthy when hungry on the go.
It was a great rule and it's good not to have  make a decision. It's already made! 

All five friends are on vacation, even though I choose to work on mine...
All of us are very busy during the winter and it was so fun to gather spontaneously.
I hope to meet them later this summer again for a picnic or BBQ.
Karin wants me to paddle kayak with her!
Three of them are English teachers, so you can imagine how I feel writing this...
I hope they tell me how to correct my mistakes.


Seven hours of shopping left Sara and me with sore legs and tired brains.
We ended the day with a dinner to a delayed celebration of her birthday.
A nice fresh shrimp salad. It's really no effort trying to lose weight. Good food starts to become a habit. So does everyday exercise as well. I am happy and I feel good!
The sun  has finally reached to Luleå. I look forward to work on my tan this weekend.

Sweden: Ropes away, full steam ahead.

One change leads to another..
I am getting ready for a new life. Fit and slim.
1st of June I decided to take another life path. Today I left the old dusty way.
The grass are greener. The colors brighter.
The ropes holding me back are gone. I'm flying free as a butterfly.