Day 20: at the gym with my home made PT

 

My oldest son is PT at SATS in Stockholm. Today he showed me how to exercise in Luleå. 

"I can't manage this" I shouted at the machine.

Elisha calm and always with an answer gazed at me:

"But you are doing it mom!".

He reminded me not to focusing on the negative.

I would never have handled three weeks on this diet with an attitude like that.

My sons are all three great inspiration in different fields.

Karate-kid:

It was a nice session. First biking out door for an hour and weight lifting. Nice to see what pedagogic and patient instructed Elisha is.

 I'm happy!

Can't tell you any weight loss today. I was not home until dinner time.

Must step on the scale in the morning before starting to drink 3.5 liters.

I'm  now adding some veggies and cheese to my soups.

It's making me full and prepares me slowly for next step.

Still have 6.5 days left on soups and shakes.

Day 19: temptation: cake in paradise

 This is my birthday child of the weekend, Joshua, happy for one of his gifts.
24 years ago he was newborn:

 

I have been on my low calorie diet with soups and shakes for almost three weeks.

I have had great result, 10 kilos so far, 20 kilos since January.

I say "no thanks every day.

No, Joshua, I don't want your birthday cake!

I stick with my chocolate diet pudding.

And as I don't use a plate the best place for the cake is in front of me...

And when my oldest son, order a XXXL pizza, they taste better in Luleå than Stockholm, I sit by the table with my LCD-SHAKE. 

 

And of course I fry 'bolonga- style' hamburgers, parisare, a northern specialty not easy 

found in the capital of Sweden for him...

In one way it's easier for me to avoid it than to make the decision 'how much will I eat ?".

Or should I have it at all?

I am starting to get fed up from my great variety of shakes and soups.

Mentally I was prepared to finish after 21 days, when I discovered my supply will last for at least another week.

On the other hand I have great success with my weight loss, it's not a big deal to stick with the diet, just boring. The result will give me and my worried family more long term happiness than the ability to eat food again already.

No weight loss since yesterday. No I didn't cheat with cake or pizza. I was on the scale this morning with wet hair!  :-)

Day 18: 37 years later. Still mad at Per Gessle...

The name of Per Gessle, to the left of me, for readers around the world, famous from Roxette, for Swedes  at my age, the singer of  Gyllene Tider.

I started at the age of 13, a music fanzine together with a friend in 1980, the same year Gyllene Tider toured Sweden after their breakthrough.
 When they arrived in Luleå, Monica and I tried to get an interview. Per Gessle and Anders Herrlin was just making fun of us when we asked our questions. It ended up with me spitting on the floor in front of them and leaving furious.
 This anger has never left me. They didn't respect us for being young journalist girls.
I never enjoyed his shallow, commercial pop music ever since.

 Today Per Gessle has a gig 50 km away, in Piteå. I would not go there even if I got paid.

Luckily the drummer of Gyllene Tider, Micke Andersson, was kind to answer our questions that summer of 1980 so we got our report to the fanzine Beat. Some how we also got the autographs of the band on my jeans jacket I guess before the interview...

 On the other side the autographs of Noice, also very famous at that time. Nice guys.
 At the top you can read Thomas Ledin, a very humble man. Still popular in Sweden.

When I first made an interview with Carlos Santana I feared my idol would be different in person than his music. I was wrong. He gave me the only interview in Sweden even though I was only a teenager. I brought my 15 record to be signed so I guess he understood I adored his music.

To meet famous people, poor people, everyday people in more than 40 countries have made me understand that a home less Vietnam veteran at Venice Beach could be more interesting than for instant a world famous musician like Per Gessle.
With his Roxette college Marie Fredriksson, I made an interview in Kalix also in the eighties. She was great.

Weight loss since yesterday:  1,1 kilo! Exactly 10 kilos all together since day 1!

Day 17: yesterday was false alarm. Keep losing weight!

A walk in the park with my mother today after the relief  watching the scale going in the right direction again!
Yesterday I had gained one kilo. I don't know why. Maybe because of the heatwave in Luleå?
 I almost forgot to write the blog post today. I ended up in a very interesting telephone conversation. Through out the years my friend and I have spend many hours talking on the phone. This was a new record, 4 hours, worth every minute! I believe that every conversation of this depth contributes to my personal development.

Weight loss since yesterday: the gained kilo and another 0,3 kilo.

Day 16: backlash?

 Me and Johan, to the left in the picture, have been working awful lot the past ten days. Now we are off until Tuesday. He was kind to drive me to the summer paradise with some chairs for the upcoming birthday bash.

I have been like a zombie all day and when I finally manage to nap I woke up after 30 minutes by a nightmare: I held my bird and let her smell on a flower. She transformed into a fawn and died in my arms. Please give me a dream interpretation!

Another nightmare occurred when I stepped up on my scale! Even though I know it was much later as usually and after drinking, and tomorrow it might look different, it was making me kind of irritated. I'm still on my diet!

Weight gain since yesterday: 1,0 kilo

Day 15: weight loss result in the ButterflyBattle

The ButterflyBattle against overweight goes on. So far 15 days of diet in July and I can't believe it, 8.5 kilos of weight loss. That makes 19,1 kilo since the first of January.
I got myself 14 boxes of Modifast low calories shakes, soups, pudding and the information it would last for 21 days, as I was a lousy student in mathematics in school,  I never reflected over the amount of bags. With one week left I discover it would last another two weeks!
Well I'm armed in this battle Sweden vs Russia. I don't know how Natasha in Petrozavodsk is doing, but I got my self some warrior to help out!

Day 14: my carrot to exercise

There is one thing than can make me exercise: the summer house by the lake.
When the sun is shining, like yesterday, I jump on the bike and ride the 10 kilometers (one way).

I don't know who has been eating on this. I have not! I stick to the diet.

Weight loss since yesterday: 0.3